"3 years ago, I'd find myself saying "I'd love to do that" or "I wish I had the guts to try and do that" and that's as far as i ever really went. I didn't know a single person who dreamed of similar things to me, nor someone who felt they could do more in life other than the typical 9-5 job."
Here I am again, music on, beverage in hand ready to get stuck in - although today it's a cider not coffee but hey sometimes you've gotta change things up a little right? I'm here with you today to once again share my thoughts with you and basically ask for your help on this one.
As you know I share everything and anything with you, because that's what I enjoy and intended to do from day one, I'm currently sat in my garden I'd planned on tanning while I work.. but that's not gone to plan as its an overcast hell - typical! But whatever I'll make do with what I have.
When I started my blog around a year ago, I knew it was something I'd been wanting to do for a few years, but it all came down to finally making the leap and simply going for it. I guess for me, taking that leap was the single most important step I'd ever taken. It made me realise just how passionate I am, made my dream become more of a reality and I'm so grateful it's gone so well for me. - The fact I have the support from you guys makes this even more amazing.
I've honestly loved the whole process and experience from this, so thank you. Anyway let's crack on, I wanted to share with you my most recent thoughts, I'm sure you're not already aware of this, but if you are I'm sorry bare with me here but it's important I start right from the beginning. Ever since I can remember I had been absolutely obsessed with other bloggers, I have followed most of them from the very beginning, to the big names they have now. I was fascinated with the journey they'd taken and I knew it was my dream. I'd be a regular reader of the content they put out, I followed all of there social media and I'd spend hours watching there YouTube channels, I knew what content I enjoyed and throughout the process I always made mental notes for myself.
3 years ago, I'd find myself saying "I'd love to do that" or "I wish I had the guts to try and do that" and that's as far as i ever really went. I didn't know a single person who dreamed of similar things to me, nor someone who felt they could do more in life other than the typical 9-5 job. If I'm honest this always held me back, I had no one to share my dreams with that would understand and motivate me into realising its visible
People would say things like "yeah but is it really going to work?" or "but how will you make it?" because I guess they weren't following or aware of the bloggers that have made it, they didn't know anyone else doing it let alone the possibilities and to them it's so out of the ordinary of what everyone else is doing. This I feel held me back for a long time, because if I'd have had the guts to take the leap when I wanted to, I'd have been doing this for over 3 years - which to me is crazy. I find myself asking "what if I'd have started then" but I know I'm doing it now and that's what matters.
I was a bit of a lone wolf for a while, until the day I met Calum. I'm not sure how long ago he came into my life exactly, but I remember the thing that drew me to him, was the fact I could tell he was different. He'd been through shit at a similar age to me, something just told me "this guy is different" at the beginning I was unsure of what, but something was telling me that he's the right guy, the kind of person I need in my life and from here we started to date.
The more we got to know each other the more we clicked, we just had something I'd never experienced before. I remember one evening we got talking about what we want from life, the dream, the goals and at that moment I knew how alike we were. We both loved YouTube, felt we could do more with life and we had such strong belief in ourselves, it was such a relief to finally meet someone on the same page as me. A year into our relationship, Cal somehow gave me the strength to simply start my blog and not care what those around me thought, he believed in me and that was the push I needed.
I can't tell you how good it feels to finally find someone who wanted similar things, someone who didn't make me feel it was impossible and someone who imply helped me take the leap of faith. But what I can tell you is that he made me realise absolutely anything is possible if you believe in it and I will remember these feelings till the day I die.
After a year of me blogging in January 2017 I finally managed to do the same for him as he had me, by persuading him to finally take the leap and start his YouTube channel. Although it is strange to have someone beside you, who's dreams are in tune with my own, I strongly believe that neither of us would be doing the things we are, if we hadn't met. For Calum everything has taken off like a whirl wind, after just 6 months of YouTube he now has nearly 500 subscribers, he's also just released a clothing line that he'd always dreamt of and he's gaining online clients to train. (obviously I couldn't be any prouder nor happier for him)
For the pair of us, I know this is just the beginning, we're only just getting started and this is honestly the most incredible feeling. But I know for me personally there is still one step forward that I haven't yet taken. I want to finally start my own YouTube channel, that for me is the final icing on the cake, it's something I've also always wanted to do. I had a plan in my head when I started my blog, just so you follow here was my plan:
I've done step 1 and 2, it's going well and I'm incredibly happy with how I'm doing a year into my journey. I've shared all sorts with you, I've had such a positive response and people are noticing my work. But for me, making video's is missing although I'm not the most technical person in the world and know it would take time to get better, I feel the only way I'm going to start is simply by trying. Just like when I started this blog I was honestly clueless, but big improvements have been made along the way.
With my blog I share so much of me, m life and who I am, I tell you stuff that's real, raw, emotional, personal, honest and truthful.I'm forever praised for my writing, told it made someone cry or told how amazing it is. But the simple truth is, there is only so much you can see from my writing, only so much you can feel and it's pretty limited in terms of how I can get people to recognise what I'm about - If that makes sense. It's a lot harder to get readers lately as YouTube is where it's at, everyone loves to watch or read reality, some people prefer to read but others hate to read and prefer to watch vice versa.
I'd like to ask you guys some advice, obviously if I go onto sharing video's my intention and thought process, is you guys seeing me in a different light. Not just reading my emotions or feelings but really see it, feel it my blog is lifestyle and my video's will be the same. I want to share with you and document maybe me caring for mum, looking after my nieces twice a week, supporting Cal just basically share with you the little parts that maybe get missed on here, even if I buy a few small things and want to share them without dedicating a whole blog post for 3 things I have the choice to share them in my YouTube, the possibilities are endless I guess. I'd always told myself that I need to grow "thatbridgegirl" before venturing onto YouTube.
My question for you guys is; when is that time? When will my blog have grown enough to expand onto YouTube? after a year, I know I've grown inside and out not just as a blogger but a person. Is this just my way of avoiding making the leap? Will I just keep putting it off forever?
Do you get what I mean, let's go back to the birth of "thatbridgegirl" I put off publishing my blog for 3 years, so am I just doing the exact same with YouTube? I don't want to just do one or the other, I want to do both so they can work alongside each other. I don't just want you to see words written on a page with pretty photos, I want you to feel like you know me, Amy Thompson, as I am today and through out life. So I can properly show you who I am, what I'm about and you can just get to know me that little bit more. The love I have for this blog and you, my readers is mind blowing, I never want this to stop, I want to carry on evolving.
I ask you again, as my audience, my supporters to tell me your thoughts, tell me if you think I should go for it, tell me if you think I'm bloody nuts, if you agree or disagree just simply tell me your thoughts. I guess I'm in a dilemma right now and that's why I'm here sharing my thoughts with you, being open and honest. Please don't be shy, think your opinion won't matter or feel like your comment won't help, just pluck up the courage and be truthful. Let me know your thoughts below in the comments or of course you can email me privately at firstname.lastname@example.org I look forward to hearing from you. Until next time, Amy.
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