"I have always been someone
Today I have decided I would like to write a little bit about my own story, go into some details about myself as a person and who I am. I feel as this blog is about my life experiences it's probably about time I wrote this.
So here goes, I have always lived in Cambridge I absolutely adore this city because it has plenty of places to eat, bars and pubs. It's the best place to explore as you're always bound to come across somewhere you haven't seen before. Summer time in Cambridge is full of endless posibilities and there's so many pretty places to capture on camera.
I am a serious family orientated person, I love nothing more than family days out or nights in together cuddled up watching movies and stuffing our faces. I have 5 nephews and nieces who I love spending time with and watching them grow up into beautiful kind hearted munchkins. They're all perfect just the way they are and I wouldn't change a thing about them.
I have 2 sisters and a brother who have helped shaped me into the person I have become. I should probably mention that one of my sisters is actually my twin, as I guess thats a big deal! Although me and Karla (my twin) get on like the bestest of friends and we hate being away from eachother for long periods of time. That's not the way its always been, in our teenage years we really didn't get along very well at all. We would constantly fight and argue resulting in our parents sometimes having to tear us apart. Now though we have both grown up into independant woman and the bestest of friends, we are pretty much inseperable at times.
We both went to St Phillips Primary School where we both shared the same groups of friends and always had eachothers backs. If anyone would pick on Karla I'd be sure to tell them where to go and her the same. We are not identical twins and we do have a few differences; her hair has always been darker than mine, she has freckles and I don't, her hair is curly and mine straight. We also have slightly different face shapes, but we do seem to have stages of looking extremely alike and not.
We also went to the same secondary school -The Netherhall Hall and Sixth Form Centre, we we're split into different half years and differnt form groups. At first we hated this, but we soon got on with it. I would say during school Karla was the louder one and made friends with pretty much everyone very quickly, where as I was definetly the quiter one due to certain circumstances, I just prefered to keep myself to myself.
I did have a handful of friends from certain classes etc but not particually many. Until year 8 or 9 where a few of the girls me and karla had known from primary school became good friends with a few other girls and we soon all became a group that would do everything together. Even now we're all in our twenties but still as close as we can be. I am the type of girl that prefers to only have a handful of friends than loads and loads but I feel its more impirtant to have a few I can trust than loads I can't.
I take a lot longer than Karla to come out of my shell when I meet people for the first time, but normally once I feel comfortable I soon let myself out and am usually told to shut up! I am now much much better at this and personally think I've gotten to the point where I no longer care or worry about other people think of me.
My oldest sister Jodie is 9 years older than me, but this makes no difference to how close we are, she has helped me through so many different circumstances. Sometimes she feels more like my 2nd mum than a sister, but I love it she's the one I go to for advice or help with things. I have always looked up to Jodie throughout life and I can not wait for the day I can be happlily married with a perfect family of my own just like her.
I never really knew what I wanted to do with life and I always hated those questions in school, on deciding my future. I knew I loved everything art and crafty, photography, writing and everything fashion related, so I chose to study Art & Design to basically pass time. I started my blog now over a year ago because this has always been something I wanted to do.
My mum was a childminder throughout my childhood and she would usually look after 2-4 children at once, so I always enjoyed helping her do so. She at one point looked after a little girl who lived just down our backlane called Kara. Throughout my childhood she has always been mine and Karla's bestfriend. We would always play together and have sleepovers or pamper evenings. Even now many years later we are all the bestest friends and we know time together is precious due to Kara's horrible illness but we never let this come between us.
I am the type of person that likes to see the best in everyone and occasionally I am proven sometimes certain people are just simply not nice or do not have good intentions. I believe in helping everyone I possibly can, at only 4ft11 I would say I have a very big heart.
I have always loved to write and even as a child I would be there with a notebook and pen. I used to dream of being a writer and nothing else ever seemed good enough for me. I have no idea what being a writer would mean but that was always my biggest dream and I guess in some way I've stuck to that dream.
One thing in my life changed me dramatically as a person; my first ever teen relationship. Although I am not comfortable going into deatil about what happened because it's something that I struggled to over come for many years. Unfortunatly I did the silly thing of believing a bad person would change for me, I believed all those broken promises that never came true. In fact everything just seemed to get worse. Eventually 3 years later I plucked up the courage and felt brave enough to leave this horrendous relationship. I remember he told me "You're the only girl I'll do this to because your weak and I enjoy destroying you. You deserve this." I believe even to this day that this is true and he genuienly enjoyed trying to ruin my life.
I suffered for many years with depression and anxiety due to this relationship and found myself never really able to trust people for many years. I used to believe I was worthless and deserved what he put me through, things even got to the point where I would have suicidal thoughts on a daily basis. Eventually though I realised I could no longer live this life and got myself a counciler to help me move on and regain trust in others. I was ashamed for years and no longer knew who I was, let alone my purpous in life.
I am now happy with my life and everything I have overcome. I am lucky I had an understanding family who knew something was really wrong before I opened up. I would return home with new bruises and marks all over my body with the stupidest excuses because I was afraid to speak out. I am thankful that one day I decided enough was enough and told my family everything. They helped me find myself again and rebuild my life.
I know many people go through even worse situations and sometimes unfortunatly can't get themselves out, but I promise things do get better and you're not alone. A relationship should bring the best out of eachother not the worst. I'm thankful for life and everyone that has helped me along the way, my past experience hasn't stopped me from anything. A struggle is temporary not forever.
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