"I guess the reality is that I haven't been feeling totally myself, I have no motivation, no appetite and I feel incredibly uninspired."
Hello my loves, firstly I'd just like to apologise for my recent absence on here, if I'm totally honest there are a fair few reasons as to why. But it never feels good to have time away from my blog, as at the end of the day writing is my passion and this blog means everything to me. I can't lie on here, and so that's why I'm going to tell you that I've been struggling lately, so I guess it's only fair to fill you in on what's been going on. So if you're interested, just keep reading and bare
I guess the reality is that I haven't been feeling totally myself, I have no motivation, no appetite and I feel incredibly uninspired. Time's like these are never good when I know I want to write but I feel like I have no good content to share. A couple of times, I have opened up my notebook ready to write but nothing comes to my mind. I mean I haven't even got a clue on what I'm wanting to write now, but I figured I'd just try and see what happens.
Before I start I would just like to say I did publish a new video on my YouTube channel on Tuesday, where I shared mums story from beginning to now. I decided I wanted to produce a video on this, to challenge myself by talking aloud, instead of writing because id I'm totally honest I don't speak about this very often, well out loud. I normally just write, but I wanted to share the real stuff on my channel to reach a different audience, one that doesn't know so much. I was incredibly nervous about publishing this, as I hadn't seen anyone else share anything similar.
Once I did publish I did however feel like I'd done the right thing, although I have avoided the comments section I do hope it has helped at least one person going through something similar.. I know I could have written about it here,on my blog but I felt it wouldn't have been a challenge, which is what I needed. If you have watched that video, then I'd just like to say thank you, thank you for listening, for the support, honestly you guys will never understand how much it means to me.
"Everything right now just feels like a struggle."
The stress I'm going through right now is written across my face, my skin has flared up badly, it's sore to touch, horrible to look at and it's been getting me down a lot. I've hidden away at home most of the time, in fear of seeing anyone and I mean I know I've always had problematic skin, but never ever this bad before.. I've been prescribed some antibiotic's which will hopefully clear it up.
It doesn't stop here however, as unfortunately my migraines have decided to pop up again -YAY! Around a year ago now, I posted a blog post on here called "Suffer in silence" where I spoke about my migraines and what I experience, you can read that here if you wish suffer-in-silence2985924.html it's horrific knowing I'm headed back here again. I actually went through 3 months migraine free and I stupidly presumed they were gone forever, so to be struck down by them again is seriously getting to me.
Unfortunately I'm now at a point in life that feels like stress upon stress, so these are side effects from that, which leaves me feeling quite useless. Obviously because of my migraines I'm having to spend some days coped up in bed and not helping Mum the way I want to, which leaves me feeling extremely guilty as fuck. Everything right now just feels like a struggle. Including writing this post, which isn't like me at all.
I know I could come over here and write without mentioning any of the above, but then it would feel fake which is something I'll never be. However because I don't want to sit here sharing yet another depressive post, I'm actually going to cut this short and leave this one here in hope that you'll understand. I'm hopefully going to be back to myself next Thursday with a better post for you guys, but for now this is all I have to say. Thank you as always for your continued support, I honestly appreciate you guys more than you know. Until next time; Amy xx
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