"On this rainy evening I've decided I'm ready to grab life with both hands and get back to doing what I love."
It seems since loosing Mum in November, I lost my way in the blogosphere; I think sometimes it can be a little overwhelming and hard to stay motivated to continuously create content at the best of times. With the constant changes of what others are producing, there's a constant pressure to keep up with others. Keeping up with life can be hard anyway - we all get that from time to time, life can occasionally just get a little too much and we just loose our 'mojo' but that's okay!
I feel that since loosing Mum I've struggled with knowing where I fit in 'the blogosphere' I've questioned what it is I should be publishing. Do I now write about my grief? The way I'm coping? I start to convince myself that writing about those things will come across wrong or my readers wouldn't be interested. I mean anyway, I wouldn't even know how to write about those things, as I don't have a clue how to explain my grief or how I've been coping; because I'm no expert. Honestly I've avoided this little space like the plague, in fear of getting it wrong or realising I've been forgotten about.
To me "blogging" has taken a big step out of my comfort zone, I barely see other posts about people's lives any more, their thoughts and just general catch up posts. Instead it seems everyone is trying to prove they've "made it" with brand collabs, ad-work and sponsorships. I'm not bashing anyone that has "made it" of course not, but I feel these people could be talking about more important things, than only focusing on foundations - sure it's handy but mix it up a little?
Everyone seems to have become the same in my opinion, but all you have to do is flick through a few of my posts and you'll see I don't "fit in" with others, is that a bad thing? I don't know and that scared me for a few months, hence the absence. I like to share with you the good, the bad and everything in between that's my style and that's what I feel most comfortable with. On this rainy evening I've decided I'm ready to grab life with both hands and get back to doing what I love.
"This is me, my life, this is my passion and I've missed my little space on the internet. I'm not here to have the most views, likes, followers or be liked by everyone"
I've spent so much time over worrying about the day I get back to my blog, that I've put it off for far too long I've neglected this space and I know that, but finally I realise it's not all that serious, I need to take the leap and prove I am relevant to not just myself but you too! I am interesting and people do want to hear from me, I've missed putting pen to paper, letting my voice flow and share my thoughts on my little space.
I convinced myself that people only came to my blog to read my posts about Mum, their only focus was how she is and now she's gone, I told myself no one would care to hear what I have to say. Flicking through my posts I realised that actually only a small portion of my blog is dedicated to Mum, I realised I do have my OWN VOICE and my life doesn't just revolve around Mum's cancer. There's far more to me as a person and on here, but sometimes that negative voice inside of us convinces us otherwise.
This is me, my life, this is my passion and I've missed my little space on the internet. I'm not here to have the most views, likes, followers or be liked by everyone, there was a time when numbers meant everything to me, but I managed to turn that around and focus on me. Being happy with my content is far more important, focusing on numbers isn't healthy and I'm so much happier without the numbers dragging me down. Shitty algorithms have taken over social media, sure it's annoying AF but its not the be all or end all.
I don't need to go into a full post about why I've taken a break, because if you're a regular here I'm sure you can already guess why I don't feel the need to share that here. Just know finally I'm back, ready to give it my best shot, take that leap of faith and see what happens. I'm going with the flow and focusing on happiness from within. Life is too short to take it for granted and not chase your dreams - that's something I've come to realise.. I'm happy to be back, I hope you're as excited as I am, to see what the future of www.thatbridgegirl.com holds.
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